Hello, it’s me. It’s 2013 on the plane home. Hope this is useful to you in 2022.

I do not actually have to do any of this.

I do not have to carry the weight of all of the trying to interpret, trying to understand, trying to contextualise.

I do not have to carry the weight of shame for having unfortunate inconvenient feelings, wishing I didn’t and trying hard to not have them.

I could just let go.